Decision number 6

Jules —  April 24, 2009

My hubby and my daddy. Daddy always does the Marine look for pictures.

The Compassionate Decision

I Will Greet This Day With a Forgiving Spirit.

For too long, every ounce of forgiveness I owned was locked away, hidden from view, waiting for me to bestow its precious presence upon some worthy person. Alas, I found most people to be singularly unworthy of my valuable forgiveness and, since they never asked for any, I kept it all for myself. Now, the forgiveness that I hoarded has sprouted inside my heart like a crippled seed yielding bitter fruit.

No more! At this moment, my life has taken on new hope and assurance. Of all the world’s population, I am one of the few possessors of the secret to dissipating anger and resentment. I now understand that forgiveness only has value when it is given away. By the simple act of granting forgiveness, I release the demons of the past about which I can do nothing and create in myself a new heart, a new beginning.

I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit. I will forgive even those who do not ask for forgiveness.

Many are the times when I have seethed in anger at a word or deed thrown into my life by an unthinking or uncaring person. Valuable hours have been wasted imagining revenge or confrontation. Now I see the truth revealed about this psychological rock inside my shoe. The rage I nurture is often one-sided, for myoffender seldom gives thought to his offense!

I will now and forevermore silently offer my forgiveness even to those who do not see that they need it. By the act of forgiving, I am no longer consumed by unproductive thoughts. My bitterness is given up. I am contented in my soul and effective again with my fellow man.

I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit. I will forgive those who criticize me unjustly.

Knowing that slavery, in any form, is wrong, I also know that the person who lives a life according to the opinion of others is a slave. I am not a slave. I have chosen my own counsel. I know the difference between right and wrong. I know what is best for the future of my family, and neither misguided opinion nor unjust criticism will alter my course.

Those who are critical of my goals and dreams simply do not understand the higher purpose to which I have been called. Therefore, their scorn does not affect my attitude or action. I forgive their lack of vision and forge ahead. I now know that criticism is part of the price paid for leaping past mediocrity.

I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit. I will forgive myself.

For many years, my greatest enemy has been myself. Every mistake, every miscalculation, every stumble I made has been replayed over and over in my mind. Every broken promise, every day wasted, every goal not reached has compounded the disgust I feel for the lack of achievement in my life. My dismay has developed a paralyzing grip.

When I disappoint myself, I respond with inaction and become more disappointed.

I realize today that it is impossible to fight an enemy living in my head. By forgiving myself, I erase the doubts, fears, and frustration that have kept my past in the present. From this day forward, my history will cease to control my destiny. I have forgiven myself. My life has just begun.

I will forgive even those who do not ask for forgiveness. I will forgive those who criticize me unjustly. I will forgive myself.

I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit.



5 responses to Decision number 6

  1. Oh my gosh, Uncle Brian’s looks have changed.
    Tell him I said HI Jules….

  2. Marilyn alias(Punkie) April 25, 2009 at 1:53 pm

    I think he looks a lot the same as last time I saw him, maybe a bit heavier. A picture you posted quite a while ago I thought didn’t look like him. Think he was on a riding mower. His hair is curlier than I remember.

  3. He has changed a lot in looks from the skiny tall boy I worked with before he ever met your mom.

    Just don’t look like him.

    Many of the decisions you have posted this week, I’ve been experiencing just lately. I think the good Lord is speaking out to me and I have been working on following his lead. I feel better and am getting out and doing more. He has always lead me thru life and I have just been waiting on him to tell me what to do. My place is here and doing what I am doing for my family and me. I’m glad you posted these on your blog.

  4. Yay! That’s awesome. I’m glad to hear that these decisions have ministered to you this week! They have sure helped me! God is so good. He loves to lead us and teach us!

  5. ogms today was the oak grove home coming . lydia was on a float shes my favorite kid